So I have been really irritated lately about whether or not I have any friends out here in California. I am really tired of listening to others, giving them advice, being there for them and what do I get in return...... Nothing! Anytime there is something that is important to me it seems that I get blown off! I am just in shock at how others can treat people sometimes and well frankly Im tired of it.
I feel like I am a good person and I have alot to give to others but it seems most of the time someone is either insinuating that I am getting on their nerves and if that isn't happening then people are ignoring me. I don't know maybe I am being selfish.... but I feel like I am far from that and I try to respect others and I don't get that back in return. I think I won't even try being friends with the people who don't make the effort to be mine in return. I swear I went home and had so much fun because I actually felt like the people that hung out with me truly loved and cared about my well being. I know that maybe sometimes I am overbearing or I talk a lot but I know everyone else has flaws too. I don't need people in my life to make me feel less valuable just because I am who I am. I don't know if its California or what but the people out here are way different and definitely not as compassionate or caring. To me this will never truly be home!
This sucks.
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