Happy Birthday to Me.....

Wow another year older and another year wiser..... well I hope another year wiser. Today I turned 27 and more than anything I wished that my b-day wish would come true. I know I say it over and over but all I want is my husband.

You know the older you get and the more things change the more you realize who really matters, who never did, and what life is all about. I learned a lot on my b-day this year. I learned that so much as changed and my husband is truly my best friend. He is the one I want in tough times, he is the one I turn to when I need to vent, and he listens. So good he has been listening. I don't know what it is about this deployment but it has brought us so much closer and communicating and really getting along. We have our little tiffs but nothing too serious. I used to have so many friendships that I valued and was so important to me and I felt like I truly had people who cared about me and my well being and things just change.

I still have friends.... well very few and friendships change but their are two that stay the same and I tell my husband this today. My friendship/relationship with him and my friendship with Lori( my best friend in the whole world). She never forgets about me and no matter what she is going through she is there for me and I too am there for her.

Well I know I am just rambling but cheers to another year older .......

I want to rip out my hair....

So its been a really tough week for me. I found my husband doesn't get to come home in May and he is shooting for June but we aren't getting our hopes up until he has the approval. The worst part is he had already bought a plane ticket so now he has to try to switch his flight and hope they don't charge him a fortune for the change.


I have been stressed, tired, emotionally drained, and I can't wait for Friday to have some cocktails....

Friday get here already! :(

To the most wonderful mom......

Since I can't be there with you today even though I wish I could I wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's Day in a special way. I want you to know that you have made me what I am today and for that I am thankful. When God put me on this earth I could not have asked for a better mother. You possess all the qualities that I hope I have when I become a mother someday. You are generous, caring, strong, compassionate, honest, and you always listen even when you are tired of me talking. I don't say this enough but I love you and Thank you for being a wonderful mom!

You Let Me Know You Love Me
You let me know you love me

In so many different ways.

You make me feel important

With encouragement and praise.
You're always there when I need you

To comfort and to care.

I know I'm in your thoughts;

Your love follows me everywhere.
Thank you for all you've done

And given so generously

I love you, my wonderful mother

;You're a heaven-sent blessing to me

And it wouldnt be complete with out a song for my mom

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xz32I_GbpeU

Happy Mothers Day!

I cried today...

I had another breakdown today... it started at work and I don't even know what it was about. I think sometimes I try to be so strong and not be sad that Im out here all alone and sometimes it really does get to me. My life is not like everyone else's. I don't get to come home to my husband every night like most people and some people take even that for granted. I don't take for granted one moment spent with him because I know that I may never get another chance to spend any time with him depending on where he is stationed and what is going on. I just started looking at stuff online tonight and this is what I ended up with..... Tears and this song that perfectly describes how I feel about my husband being a soldier.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cs1kFqnCbNY

Almost home....

So.... the infamous husband whom I haven't seen since Jan 09 is about to come home at the end of this month. I haven't seen him in 5 months and its a mixture of feelings that I have. I get so independent doing my own thing it will be wierd having him sleeping next to me and being there everyday once I come especially since I have a routine. I know he is only home for two weeks but I have a lot of emotions about him coming here.

It is excitement, nervousness, fear, happiness,.... all the normal feelings that go along with not seeing someone for a long time. It is unfortunate that he will be heading back to Guam for two more months but the deployment will be pretty much over with after he leaves so that is a plus.

All I can say is welcome to the life of a military wife....